I been procrastinate again. What had I done? I work really hard & put effort in my work but.. I still have trouble of communicate with my boss. Work still new maintain, yet I don't hv source income. How am I going to sustain my life.
Ppl use to said 'where there's a way, there 's a will". Where is the will? Back to reality , everything is talk about money. I'm not realistic but face the truth of reality. Some more I know myself well, I don't have saving. How I going sustain?
Too much thing come at a time.
First is my braces, doc said I might can de-braces for my next appointment but I need settle my balance.
Second, baby blue going to be 1 year old. I need settle insurance, car road tax & maintenance fee for coming service.
Personal finance, how to manage my own finance? Im so failure. I need idea to save & generate money.
Sighs.. Rambling again. I should work out not rambling.
Open my heart, accept who I am. Accept what had happened.
Accept the day had passed.
Accept everything that god had prepared for me.
Accept the reality of the world.
Open my heart to accept his apologise and let him go.
So that I able sleep well and tight;)
Where should I begin.
Here is the place where I update most whenever I'm the down mood. I wrote yet did consider about other people feeling.
Everything I did, I need consider the impact of pros & cons. Should be said is cons more than pro. My mind set in a wrong way to protect myself.
This causes me driven to a corner where I not dare to face the reality. Is seen had causes me like bk way to breath.
Can I solve matter like my friend said "大事发小，小事发无＂
A very deep knowledge for me to learn. I need leave out from my comfort zone, learn be more independent & more to decision maker.
I must act an adult an act like an adult, else I won't have a priority talk in the family or build up my self-confidence.
Why should I worry thing that already happen and make myself unhappy?
To be happy or not is a matter of urself to choose. Nobody can force u.
I need strength and also guidance..
To me love and family is everything till I forgot myself and always dependent on them. I respect their decision more than my own decision. Some may think is a filial, but not that way. I should think and analysis which is good and bad to them.
I need some time to adjust my attitude.
God, pls give me some strength!
I want 正能量！
Walk mate journal (Apps from SE W980i)
7/8/2012 = Jog for 8mins but walk abt 20min (havent started use the apps)
8/8/2012 = 900++ steps (evening jog)
9/8/2012 = 1.5k++ steps (morn & evening jog)
12/8/2012 = 2.6k++ steps (evening jog)
15/8/2012 = 3026 steps (morn & evening jog)
I use my old SE walkman phone to be my companion for workout & also my journal recording.
Normally, i will go jogging in the evening after work ard 630pm++.. Due to the traffic, some time may reach home late. So is not safety to jog that time. Till last week i wake up with crazy idea where I set my alarm to 7am morn. Then wash up wear my sport cloths & went to jogging for 20mins.
It's feel great jog in the morning time with fresh & less car on the road. I sweat more than jogging in evening time. Another benefit jogging is morning time is, I didnt feel sleepy when working.
I did google-ed around topic of jogging & walking this exercise.Then also safety when jogging. And another concern matter is about the breast. I'm not showing off but just saying the fact that I had big breast. Is very hard and inconvenience for me to jog without a proper or good bra to support it's when jogging..
I dont want my breast look saggy like old aunty with my current age but in the same time also dilemma whether I should stop or continue back to jogging. This is the main problem. Sighs...
I also seek advice from a friend like to jogging. Below is her golden advise to me:
a. Knee guard. The most important things to wear when jogging to protect our legs.
b. Take more calcium food to supply energy when jogging
c. Warm up before start jog to avoid cramp
d. SLOW run dont rush.
e. Go swimming is better option than running. LOL
I also wish to go back swimming but here dont have the facility. Why last time I have so many sports cells in my body but nowadays all become lazy cells. Something goes wrong on my body.
Let's end with a song which is my current favourite :
Recently a friend commented me :
Your face is muka 2 ringgit, mau tak mau only 2 faces. Simple easy mind to read. A bit 傻白傻白。 and also fragile like stock made from China. Harga murah so kena hati2 sikit cause is FRAGILE!
Is weekend, a free day where i can slow down my path walk do whatever things I like. Finally, I manage get the pyslla bread from my friend who help me bought it from Ikea SG. :)
Is a kid game but kinda challenge to me as I'm a failure in art class person. But with the advance tech, wooh la, Internet is the best friend & the mentor for me to learn and do.
Let's picture talk:
#1 Pyssla beads & the tools or known as plat & also wax paper that not included in
#2 colourful beads.
#3 when I going finish the beads?
#4 first attempt - Mario or mushroom?
#5 over iron cause the look 'cacat'
#6 Rainbow below the wax paper
#7 my second successful item - Rainbow
#8 some where over the rainbow...
#9 third - Super G
#10 The drafts of the Mcqueen from Cars
#11 The drafts of the Mcqueen from Cars- straight look
#12 after ironing.
#13 vroom vroom..
#14 close up look
Mcqueen is specially do for my nephew who is car maniac that collect many cars.
Still have many thoughts in my mind, but ..... hard to share it here as my mind still not in the clear state. I need other things to distract my mind now. Else, miss emo will come to find me again.
I use to play numbers daily & count other people money all together...
When after work, I also play numbers. I play another set of numbers..
Out of sudden, a friend popped a question to me "Ain't you feel bored with this number?"
Hmmm.. Have I ever thought of this question ?
I reply her "That's working life, else how we sustain?"
Just like old saying "You live to eat or Eat to live ?"
Same right? Maybe is IMO only...
Frankly speaking, I really didnt thought of this question before. Maybe I'm still new in this working life or kinda count as environment. Just feel working is totally different with study life. Boss paid to buy our time and we use time to exchange for paid.
Picture time
#01 Rilakuma for mummy. Hope he can replace me to company mum at home
The birthday gal said tis pic look like our old school pic with a white board behind. Just like old school time.
Time passed too fast.. Blinked eye we all reach the middle ages of twenties. While married and get children is normal, attached still attached, single still single, dating just dating, new born come ... And etc etc..
This part of the process of growing up.. Ain't it?
In the process of growing, we should learn. Learn how to open our mind, think wider, forget and forgive, cherish the people around, appreciate everything that people had done to u, learn be more polite and manners. Because all of this will reflect in ur attitude and the environment.
Simple way to said is karma!
Thanks my friends for being there for me not matter what.
Thanks for the understanding when we had arguments.
Thanks for sharing problem and open ears..
Thanks to bf that 24/7 be there for me not matter what and everything.
Thanks for letting me to join in part of your life to learn be more mature and hold my hand together to growth.
Thanks to parents who always there to support me in silent mode.
Thanks for bringing me to this wonderful world to be your daughter.
Thanks to siblings who always take are me and teach many lesson in life in on of words or tease or 'bird' or whatever.
The 1 who I should thank you very much is the god that create this world. If not him , I will not able to have such a lot.
#2 Mix the butter cake and cream cheese together. (butter cake from cake shop not self-bake)
#3 melt the chocolate
#4 my home look = aunty look
#5 Mix well the cake with cream. Keep on press and press..
#6 Make the dough into circle look & freeze in freezer
#7 the 1st cake pop !
#8 the product till..suddenly 'pop' snd ...
#9 The pop cake fell down.. should be the chocolate prob & also cake.
#10 - One of the success cake pop.
The rest would be ...
#11 Totally FAILED!
#12 The sad & disappointment face..
Luckily still able keep 1 for my love. He very generous eat it although the taste is not very good and count totally failed .. But my love always said not matter what I cook he also will eat. Muacks..
