Low self-esteem

Where should I begin.
Here is the place where I update most whenever I'm the down mood. I wrote yet did consider about other people feeling.
Everything I did, I need consider the impact of pros & cons. Should be said is cons more than pro. My mind set in a wrong way to protect myself.

This causes me driven to a corner where I not dare to face the reality. Is seen had causes me like bk way to breath.

Can I solve matter like my friend said "大事发小，小事发无＂

A very deep knowledge for me to learn. I need leave out from my comfort zone, learn be more independent & more to decision maker.

I must act an adult an act like an adult, else I won't have a priority talk in the family or build up my self-confidence.

Why should I worry thing that already happen and make myself unhappy?

To be happy or not is a matter of urself to choose. Nobody can force u.

I need strength and also guidance..

To me love and family is everything till I forgot myself and always dependent on them. I respect their decision more than my own decision. Some may think is a filial, but not that way. I should think and analysis which is good and bad to them.

I need some time to adjust my attitude.
God, pls give me some strength!
I want 正能量！

不顾一切，让它来就来，随去而去.
我不是圣人，只是个不通人。

Workout

Walk mate journal (Apps from SE W980i)
7/8/2012 = Jog for 8mins but walk abt 20min (havent started use the apps)
8/8/2012 = 900++ steps (evening jog)
9/8/2012 = 1.5k++ steps (morn & evening jog)
12/8/2012 = 2.6k++ steps (evening jog)
15/8/2012 = 3026 steps (morn & evening jog)

I use my old SE walkman phone to be my companion for workout & also my journal recording.

Normally, i will go jogging in the evening after work ard 630pm++.. Due to the traffic, some time may reach home late. So is not safety to jog that time. Till last week i wake up with crazy idea where I set my alarm to 7am morn. Then wash up wear my sport cloths & went to jogging for 20mins.

It's feel great jog in the morning time with fresh & less car on the road. I sweat more than jogging in evening time. Another benefit jogging is morning time is, I didnt feel sleepy when working.

I did google-ed around topic of jogging & walking this exercise.Then also safety when jogging. And another concern matter is about the breast. I'm not showing off but just saying the fact that I had big breast. Is very hard and inconvenience for me to jog without a proper or good bra to support it's when jogging..

I dont want my breast look saggy like old aunty with my current age but in the same time also dilemma whether I should stop or continue back to jogging. This is the main problem. Sighs...

I also seek advice from a friend like to jogging. Below is her golden advise to me:
a. Knee guard. The most important things to wear when jogging to protect our legs.
b. Take more calcium food to supply energy when jogging
c. Warm up before start jog to avoid cramp
d. SLOW run dont rush.
e. Go swimming is better option than running. LOL

I also wish to go back swimming but here dont have the facility. Why last time I have so many sports cells in my body but nowadays all become lazy cells. Something goes wrong on my body.

Let's end with a song which is my current favourite :

Muka 2 Ringgit

Recently a friend commented me :
Your face is muka 2 ringgit, mau tak mau only 2 faces. Simple easy mind to read. A bit 傻白傻白。 and also fragile like stock made from China. Harga murah so kena hati2 sikit cause is FRAGILE!

Ain't it true?

Pyssla

Is weekend, a free day where i can slow down my path walk do whatever things I like. Finally, I manage get the pyslla bread from my friend who help me bought it from Ikea SG. :)

Is a kid game but kinda challenge to me as I'm a failure in art class person. But with the advance tech, wooh la, Internet is the best friend & the mentor for me to learn and do.

Let's picture talk:

#1 Pyssla beads & the tools or known as plat & also wax paper that not included in

#2 colourful beads.

#3 when I going finish the beads?

#4 first attempt - Mario or mushroom?

#5 over iron cause the look 'cacat'

#6 Rainbow below the wax paper

#7 my second successful item - Rainbow

#8 some where over the rainbow...

#9 third - Super G

#10 The drafts of the Mcqueen from Cars

#11 The drafts of the Mcqueen from Cars- straight look

#12 after ironing.

#13 vroom vroom..

#14 close up look

Mcqueen is specially do for my nephew who is car maniac that collect many cars. 

Still have many thoughts in my mind, but ..... hard to share it here as my mind still not in the clear state. I need other things to distract my mind now. Else, miss emo will come to find me again.

寻找自我

我是谁？
是否我有曾想过我想做什么还是想要做怎样的人。
我有认真过每一天生活还是每天糊里糊涂的过呢？

我。。
我是谁？

08.08.2012

Two presents that I gain today

#1 a scratch from my nail.. Causes a scar on my leg.. So scare my little nail

#2 I kneel down on office carpet when sorting & filing all the documents. (wear skirt so can't sit down)

Bye SK II

Thanks for the companion.. & thanks to the bf that got me this..
















Maybe I'm not loyal user.. So it doesn't show any affect to my face.. Sayonara

New lesson.

Quote from the read
"去做自己喜欢的事或能令自己开心的事。别再一昧委屈自己了自己。要学会疼爱自己，才有能力爱别人。＂

The consequences

Pic talk. & moral of the story, don't be like hamburger for more than a day