November

So fast.. Going end of November soon.

I been procrastinate again. What had I done? I work really hard & put effort in my work but.. I still have trouble of communicate with my boss. Work still new maintain, yet I don't hv source income. How am I going to sustain my life.

Ppl use to said 'where there's a way, there 's a will". Where is the will? Back to reality , everything is talk about money. I'm not realistic but face the truth of reality. Some more I know myself well, I don't have saving. How I going sustain?

Too much thing come at a time.
First is my braces, doc said I might can de-braces for my next appointment but I need settle my balance.
Second, baby blue going to be 1 year old. I need settle insurance, car road tax & maintenance fee for coming service.

Personal finance, how to manage my own finance? Im so failure. I need idea to save & generate money.

Sighs.. Rambling again. I should work out not rambling.

泪

我不是圣人、只是个普通人、有七情六欲、有感受、有自觉、有擦觉.

每当我努力放下也顺其自然时、就有考验和阻碍、我掉泪不是我弱而是我真的累了、不想活在哪个阴影。

我一定要活的跟美丽！
爱哭就哭、哭完就要勇敢面对！

The 3rd months

I'm still adapting it. & learn to let it go. I'm not sinner yet angelic, just a normal human being.

Learning to be more independent & strong. I pray, I cry, I smile, I slake, I laugh, I think, I do yet.. Still the same of me..

God, pls gv me strength to keep on moving forward..

Zzz

我又失眠了。
为何呢？