Last quarter of 2013

Jan, Feb, Mac, Apr, May, June, July, Aug, Sept....

and is finally October.

How are u doing & what have you done?

Acceptance

Accept the truth of reality & live to love yourself & your body. 

You only have one body, it's follow from the day u born till the day u leave the world. 

Super moon 2013

Past few days is the super moon day of the year but my place is full of haze. I can't see very clear pic of the moon it. Here is another super moon version to myself. 

I saw it when I sort of waking up or so called insomnia. Kill me pls, what makes me wake up tis time? I need work later. =.=|||

Dated : 25th June 2013 

Dated: 22nd June 2013 (credited to someone who trying to captured the best moon pic to me)

Tears

Have u ever wake up of hearing your crying sound or just urself being over emotional that causes u cry in your dream? 

This happened not only once to me but a few times. I really don't know why this will happened on me. 

Am I too silly or just that I haven't let go? 

Tears will drop whenever mum or whoever mention it's name. Ain't it over & we live in our own world? 

I need silent medications too calm down or I just not suitable to live in this environment? A new change would be better for me? 

Chaiwalla & Co.,

While waiting..

What is life mean to u?

28.02.2013

Forgive.

I had forgive him & truly wish him all the best.

放手也是算解开／解脱

女人

今天是人日，又刚过了情人节；送个智慧礼物给所有婚姻/感情中的女人吧：

女人要懂得经营自己，你才能拥有幸福美满的婚姻。

1。 永远不要让任何男人成为你生命中的全部。男人是很犯贱的，你越有自信，越不在乎他，他就越紧张你，越爱你。

2。 要拥有自己的事业。 现在的男人易变，你永远不知道他什么时候会变心，自己的事业才是最好的生活保障，不是男人。 许多女人为了家庭而放弃事业，其实有很多事业是可以家庭和事业兼顾的，比如传销，保险，写作，家教，家庭加工等，只要时间分配好，不要过分强求钱赚多或少，你是可以轻松经营家庭， 兼顾事业。

3。就算你赚的钱比他多，你也要让你的男人支付全部的家庭费用。因为男人如果觉得你能在经济上资助他的时候他就会开始懒惰工作。这是我辅导个案中最长见的家庭悲局起因。女人往往自觉性的认为应该努力赚钱以帮补家用，可是当自己赚很多钱的时候，男人开始懒惰，开始抱怨，开始觉得自卑。。。到时，你就算赚更多的钱解救不了自己的困境。

4。不要过度的索取, 也不要不忍要求礼物。男人送礼物给女人其实会让男人感到光荣，你不让他送给你，他就只好把礼物送给别的女生以满足自己的虚荣心。收到礼物的时候，要开心的笑说：谢谢你， 亲爱的，我好喜欢。（就算你真的觉得那礼物很没Taste都要这样说！）

5。当爱情或婚姻遇到第三者袭击时，千万不要一哭二闹三自杀来挽回。到目前为此，我还没看到这招是能挽回爱情或婚姻的实案。 这时候哭闹只会让他觉得你很烦， 相反的，当你很大方的自动退出这三角恋反而会让他不舍。（请参考第一条文）

6。不要在生活的细节上思考那么多。做人傻一点，笨一点是会更有人缘。捉住一个男人不是捉住他的胃，而是让他身边的人都喜欢你，觉得你很棒，这样就算发生婚变，这些人才是挽回你的婚姻的贵人。

7。就算结婚了，在家都要打扮自己。 没有人喜欢看黄脸婆，包括你自己，也是喜欢看美丽漂亮的可人儿。

8。不要为任何人放弃你的朋友, 忽视你的家人。 要知道, 当爱情不在了,真正支持你的不是那个曾经的山盟海誓的男人, 而是这些家人，朋友。

9。 不要把人生当苦行，而是把人生当修行。 任何发生的事都不过是在考验自己的修行而已，只要把自己的功课做好，让结果以微笑自信的态度听天由命吧。

10。学会做女人。男人需要的是个温柔大方，善解人意，能陪他一起做任何事的完美女神；男人最不喜欢你像妈妈那样不断唠叨，你也不需要像女佣那样会做家务，你更不是他特地娶回家的煮饭婆， 也不需要做女强人，只需要做个可爱的小女人就好。

每个幸福的家庭都拥有一个可爱自信的快乐女主人。


Worth reading.:)
& source from : http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=10200670692196635&set=a.1674944320383.2094050.1440699049&type=1&theater

Feb 2013

Is February which mean forever alone month? Need terms or known as Internet language that I learned recently. Haha.

I should glad enjoy it. Shld let myself distract by the stupid emotion feeling. Life goes on and on. I must know & learn to forget.

Maybe a glass of bitter gout mix with pear will help me to stay more clear and awake. ;)

Emo?

当我一人在流泪伤心时、你在和她快活、
是谁同情我、听我哭泣？

当我改变是，你们却说是我变心？

Happily Sunday

Thanks god for giving me another wonderful weekend with sisters & nephew. ;)

Life can be simple easy & contented when you spent with family.

FAMILY = Father And Mother I Love You

Our life is given by our parents same to siblings as well. We didnt choose which family to be born, whose daughter/son to be and who to be our siblings but is already arrange and destine.

Thanks sisters and brother for being part of my life. Although I use to dislikes and hate you all when I was young. But I'm so wrong, what you all did was a second role character of parents to take care of me, protect me, and love me.

Still remember last Christmas, staying at brother house. Everything was well taken care by him and sister-in-law. He even prepare meal for me ;)

And also is first time brother take initiative to spent Christmas Eve with me. 'Blissful'
Although we didnt manage grab turkey or draught beer, but the quality time we spending is much more expensive than the expensive food & drinks. <3 br="">
I'm proud to said I have a pair of typical china-men dad & so-worry mum as parents, 3 sisters & 1 brother who love more me more than themselves. ;)

#1 Loh han zai & tang yuan buy bro

#2 Bro wedding on 9/12/2012

#3 Lau's Sister

3rd sis, 2nd sis, me & big sis

# Family portrait with god-sis 

2013

Happy new year peeps..

Is January, beginning of a year again. New year with new resolution ?
Nah~ I don't think I have.

But I'm learning to be a better me & be brave to face everything ;)

God, pls give me the strength! I really need it to move forward!

I want looking forward for everything!
I want make decision without regret!
I want be the special & the one and only one Meng Her in this world & make my parents feel proud to this daughter!

Shld be action loud than speak. I must proof it. Go go! I must do it!

Work smart , play hard! ;)

4th day to go Xmas

So fast..
1more day going to be 21.12.2012
World end?
Or just weather change?

I'm looking forward as this will be my first time travel alone to KL.
hopefully everything goes well ;)

Wanna share my recent daily activities..

December is a month of season greeting. I attended high school friend wedding & also my brother wedding. House is full of people & joy.

I have the chance to groom up myself, make it difference, smile more & talk more.

I lost weight, I lost things but I gain more than I lost.

I have great BFF companion, my parents concern, siblings care & also my god-bro.. They let me know that I'm still the little princess in the house. ^^

Joy to myself that I'm alive ;)
La la la ...

#1. Leg get swallow because wearing 5ich heel & also kena pijak by sis.

#2. Eeyore company while waiting someone.

#3 souvenir & Xmas gift from boss

#4 BFF that groom me & make me look gorgeous lady of the night..;)

Naive

Being childish is the happiest moment...

November

So fast.. Going end of November soon.

I been procrastinate again. What had I done? I work really hard & put effort in my work but.. I still have trouble of communicate with my boss. Work still new maintain, yet I don't hv source income. How am I going to sustain my life.

Ppl use to said 'where there's a way, there 's a will". Where is the will? Back to reality , everything is talk about money. I'm not realistic but face the truth of reality. Some more I know myself well, I don't have saving. How I going sustain?

Too much thing come at a time.
First is my braces, doc said I might can de-braces for my next appointment but I need settle my balance.
Second, baby blue going to be 1 year old. I need settle insurance, car road tax & maintenance fee for coming service.

Personal finance, how to manage my own finance? Im so failure. I need idea to save & generate money.

Sighs.. Rambling again. I should work out not rambling.

泪

我不是圣人、只是个普通人、有七情六欲、有感受、有自觉、有擦觉.

每当我努力放下也顺其自然时、就有考验和阻碍、我掉泪不是我弱而是我真的累了、不想活在哪个阴影。

我一定要活的跟美丽！
爱哭就哭、哭完就要勇敢面对！

The 3rd months

I'm still adapting it. & learn to let it go. I'm not sinner yet angelic, just a normal human being.

Learning to be more independent & strong. I pray, I cry, I smile, I slake, I laugh, I think, I do yet.. Still the same of me..

God, pls gv me strength to keep on moving forward..

Zzz

我又失眠了。
为何呢？

;)

The journey is still faraway..
Not matter how tiring or how sad, look at the people in third countries, I'm far lucky and happiness them.

I should keep on moving without hesitate & complain. Life still goes on.

再这么辛苦或累、只要给自己一个十分钟休息大脑和小脑、过后再接再厉的往前冲！

加油！

妈妈

世上只有妈妈好、
要妈的孩子象个宝。

这首歌、真的真的好多感触。
今晚送妈咪到火车站时、不知不觉眼泪掉了看她一人塔火车回去。

过去这三天和她两人及姐姐去了度假、让我安抚她、开导她、作弄她、分享。真的好快乐也很感恩。

真希望妈咪能感受到。和看开一些。

我的刘妈妈

十月

在不到一个月的时间、家里最亲的已离我们去跟快乐的人地方和解脱病痛的恶魔。

从六伯到大舅母然后啊姨。

看到他们一个一个的离别，真的让我学到＂人生无常＂。

真的是要活在当下、不要再执着不属于我。虽然会心痛，但这一却会过去。
不要在让父母担心、亲人操心也让自己烦心。

凡事都的是，干嘛不要好好和认真去做好它。眼泪爱哭就让它哭、因为哭是你舒解压力也是你一直以来自我表达方式、干嘛要在意它或别人这么说。
人是有感情、不是冷血动物。

不知不觉，我又熬过了两个礼拜。

还记得那晚帮啊姨念佛经、眼泪不知不觉想开水龙头一直流、简单的佛经和字语有这么深的意义、让我有开窍了一些想法。

是我自要发泄还是真的领悟到它的意识呢？我也不知。

只知妈咪很担心我会变成尼姑、也叫了姑姑来安慰我、也被姑姑训了我一顿，。我是健康的少吃和多运动才瘦的不是为了他。为何没人相信呢？ 我真的不想再让父母为我操心、也跟不想自我放弃。

简单和自足是我最想要的和学习。

感恩、我又或多了一天。